You'd think that in the middle of a countrywide lockdown that I'd find something more useful to do. All this time in front of me and I'm being the least productive than I've ever been. I should really be finishing my works in progress, yet all I seem to be doing is playing games and reading. Throw in a bit of cooking and that's basically how I've been spending my time.

I guess it's lack of focus, each day has become the same. Weekends blend into weekdays, weeks blend into months and I feel the life is passing me by. After a few years of self-isolating due to anxiety and depression I was coming out the otherside. Now I'm right back in there, anxiety keeping me from the great outdoors.

I really must try to structure my life. Perhaps I should set aside part of the day to writing, and stop playing those games so much? It's all down to self-discipline, I know that. Yet I find that whilst knowing these things I still carry on as I'm doing. A real conundrum...

I could be spending time developing new skills. I'm not talking about picking the guitar up again, or learning to bake. I mean developing skills that'll help me in the long term. I should be learning new web skills, trying out the new programs I've bought to replace Creative Cloud. Each day I promise myself I will. Each day it ends the same old way...

Today is the day everything will change. I have lots of ideas of doing constructive activities, some of which I'll explain in later posts. I need to set the schedule and keep to it. Stop browsing the news, where it only makes me feel more anxious. Life can change, I need to make it so. (sorry for the cheesy Picard reference)

Brompton Sawdon

Brompton Sawdon is an aspiring writer who lives in the foothills of the Pennines in the UK. He has various works in progress at this moment of time and hopes to publish some of his stories in the near future.
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